Hello My Loves....

It has been a busy day. Finally getting around to taking the decorations down....you know I said the other day how sad it is to take them down...:(..but it must be done or Valentines is going to be here and I will still be celebrating Christmas....Speaking of Valentines...I don't know about the rest of the ladies in the world...but as I have aged it just doesn't seem as exciting as it use to be. I remember  being so excited as a teenager dating age to have the big flower and candy day arrive....wondering who was going to buy me a heart and put it on this big board we had at school and what color it was gonna be..the colors meant something...White was friendship...red of course was love and so on. Then once I had a boyfriend..what kind of flowers would I get?....Candy with them..and if so what kind of box...how big? For some reason in my mind that seem to let me know if he loved me or really really loved me...or just didn't know how to tell me to get lost!!! I can assure you the man I married almost 30 years ago is wishing he would have sent the message of GET LOST! I am... as he puts it...expensive and not just at Valentines!!! He loves me though..or maybe he figures it is cheaper to keep me...lol....I raised a smart man!!!!

Intersting thing today is parking...went to the outdoor shopping complex we have near my home to pick up a couple items....I drive a SUV Pathfinder....not really big but does need some thought as to where I should park. Find me a nice spot..pull in leaving plenty of open spots to the right of me. Truthfully there were a dozen or more open spots one could park in...but oh no..these two teenage boys have to park their little sardine can of a car right friggin next to my monster truck..as close as they can...so close in fact...the driver can't get his skinny ass out of his sardine can without hitting my door with his. While it didn't hurt my vehicle it pissed me off with him...I mean like really dude...you can't park in one of the other zillion spaces so you can open your door all the way????? He looks right at me and doesn't say sorry ...kiss my ass...did I hurt your door let me look.... nothing. So me being me.....goes to the kid ..."Hey...don't just walk away...you hit my door"...he just looks at me with a deer in the headlight stare...so I ask him.."where did you learn to park?....K-Mart blue light??"...he says nothing....so I help him out and tell him how it's gonna go.."you need to say your sorry...and smile while you do it...and you need to take parking lessons...cause why in the world would you park that thing so freakin close you can't get out to begin with?...I don't know if you noticed or not..but there are about a zillion EMPTY spaces you could have parked your tin can....but you parked by me and not only did you park by me..you hit my door...so go on and do your shopping...don't worry it's ok...but what you should know is I have never driven anything this big and I don't back very well....but I think your car will be okay...but I can't promise...have a nice day:)" by now it is all I can do not to bust out laughing ..he gets in to his car..his friend gets in ..being oh so careful not to bump my door again and leaves!!! Mission Accomplished!!!

Lesson today: Dumbass Parking 101

I have my cup of tea..grab yours and lets go sit by the fire...

Til Tomorrow My Loves
Alana

Hello My Loves,

I am so tired today and I have no idea why. The Doc has me trying a new dosage of meds for my low acting Thyroid....Thyroid issues are such a roller coaster ride of emotions and levels of energy...it annoys me to no end. While I am thankful that I don't have other more fatal issues....I still suffer. I find it difficult to function somedays. Just getting out of bed is a chore for me. Then I feel quilty because I know there are so many more out there that have it so much worse than me. I am trying to get to this blog everyday...but I am finding it hard for some reason. Today it seems as if everything bothers me. I am bothered by my own self and it seems as if everthing is twice as hard as it needs to be.!!! I am filled with frustration about so many things and so many emotions. One of the things I love to do the most is write (when I am not racing of course) and it seems  that is even a chore these days.

My Christmas decorations are still up and I so need to put them away. I guess I am delaying the process because they are comforting to me. They bring a feeling of peace and calmness to me. The beautiful lights and treasured ornaments from years gone by ..the newest ones that have memories already and thinking of the ones to come! Christmas Time is my favorite season and it just holds so many wonderful memories....people seem more loving, caring and happy during this time (YES there are still the scrooges out there)...but for the most part they seem to be out numbered . More important is that we are celebrating the birth of our savior..Jesus. ...No it isn't the actual date of his birth.but it is the date that it is celebrated so that is what I do.

Tomorrow is the day I have decided to put away all decorations along with my sons help we will get it done!...GET R DONE as Larry the cable Guy would say!...speaking of which....he makes me laugh so hard I swear I almost pee in my pants...I don't yet...but I am getting older I should think about some depends.....NO I don't think so ..wouldn't it be way better to wet my pants and then tell my best friend..cause you know what she would laugh so hard that she would pee in hers too!!!!...I can just see that now....you would have to know both of us to get the true humor in this!!!! Way funny I tell you.

I think writing is good for the soul..I have smiled for the first time today writing this...I am sure some English teacher/professor somewhere is gonna need therapy after reading my blogs because of all the grammatical errors...thats ok..cause I am just me and if some of you are laughing...complaining...etc..then I have done my job....lol....at any rate I feel better!...Here is your cup of tea...nice and warm because it is 19 degrees at my home today....sit back and enjoy our little chat by the fire..stay as long as you want.

Have a good laugh on me...it's all good!
Til Tomorrow...
Alana

Morning.....notice this doesn't have good in front of it....that would be because I am not sure about today yet. I really wanted to sleep in but oh no I wake up at 7:17 am.  Those are not freakin Princess Hours..and my family knows I am the Princess!!! Apparently NOT TODAY! And for what it's worth if my computer is gonna spell check me...DON'T just UNDERLINE the damn word...SPELL IT FOR ME!!! If I could spell it you wouldn't need to underline it!!!!

I am feeling stressed today. I am not sure why..while I want to write this blog very much and thought I had all the ideas of random in place...I find it hard to get it out of my mind and onto this page! I write blurb stuff on FB..status wise..and its a piece of cake....wtf can't I make that happen here....Pressure...????...No that can't be it cause while I want people to read it and enjoy and share my life..If it doesn't happen I won't curl up in a corner and die...I mean I do have some sort of life other than SOCIAL MEDIA...or at least I use to! Sometimes I hate technology and I wish it all would just go to hell! Give me my glass of sweet ice tea...a rocking chair on my porch to sit my fat lazy ass in and I am good!!! But NO...you fucktards who dreamed up all this shit stress me out and make me look like a loser if I can't use it!!! I will learn and then everyone is gonna be screwed...just sayin

I took a break...you didn't even know it...went to breakfast/lunch at IHOP..then a movie with the son...saw Parental Guidance..good movie but it made me cry...again I have no idea why...and I cried all the way home..cried changing the laundry over...folding the laundry...putting the laundry away....not crying at this moment cause frankly...I can't see the keyboard through the alligator tears! My son says OMG MOM..this is why I am never getting married..WOMEN...why are you crying he ask....I don't know I say...then he says with a snarky attitude...so you just cry to cry?????? YES SON ..as a matter of fact I do...so bite me!!!

One day all this will be my sons journal to burn ..share...take a hammer to what ever..he is gonna look back and say .."MY MOM SHOULD HAVE BEEN COMMITTED"....but hey it life what can I say.

I hope tomorrow is better....but it won't be tomorrow ..it will be today...for tomorrow never comes!

Tea Time....cheeers my loves!
Alana

Good Morning My Loves....The sun is shining today...yippie!!!! I so have that seasonal disorder thing going on. I love the snow...but I need to be able to sit out in it with a good book and a drink..kinda like summer..lol. I think however I am gonna need more than a swimsuit on.

Oatmeal cookies have been made already this morning . Why so early you ask am I baking cookies?....Because I know life is uncertain and I believe dessert should always come first. Taste testing them I discovered I should have included nuts...too late now. This will not keep me from eating them and they are like chips to me..I can't eat just one. Pull up your chair grab a cookie and a cup of tea.

The day is early so I don't have a lot to complain about ....yet!!! But trust me it will happen!!!! I am trying to write this and my guys behind me are yaking so I can't concentrate....they are even more random than me..just sitting here listening to them the conversation goes like this..".we have been to Germany..we have floored our car on the ice (as a MOM I didn't need to hear that)....why is  poop deck called a poop deck?...Is it cause birds poop on It?.... I don't know says the other one...hey hello ...this oatmeal stuff is really gooey....Dad you should have been here when the spray nozzle came off the kitchen sink...that was so funny....Oh geez someone is getting driving lessons next door...oh it's a girl..she don't look like she is doing so well....now singing take me out to the ball game...."   Yes, these people really belong to me!!! Holy Cow...  The things overheard in  my house.Well you know what they say fact is stranger than fiction!

I am looking forward to a road trip today...love adventure...especially getting lost...NOT..but that is a whole different blog.

Be sweet and have a second cookie!
Til tomorrow....
Alana

Well here we are....the beginning of the year...2013. This is really my first adventure into the blogging world even though it has been around it seems forever. I am always behind the 8 ball..:) As I share my world with you it will be a day in the life of me...that means RANDOM wonders...words that are not spelled correct...improper grammar and punctuation...etc. Basically you  just get me. I hope that I make you laugh and cry....make you think and wonder....give you hope ....let you know you are not alone in this journey we call life and maybe just maybe awaken the inner part of you that screams it's okay to be NORMAL and NOT PERFECT in this "PERFECT WORLD WE LIVE IN"!  I don't care about what you weigh ..your color..your beliefs or your skeletons in your closet....we all have them...I am willing to let you look into my life and see what a train wreck we all live...even the rich and famous...which I am not!

I hope you will follow me and please leave comments ..thoughts things you want to share with me....I would love to hear from you...this is just a personal blog....nothing to be gained or lost from it. I open my heart and home to you as my friends and followers.

I am sure I will stumble..fall and make a fool of myself..I am learning....:)...I believe if we never step out of our comfort zone right or wrong...we never grow. Please if you enjoy this journey with me...share my addy and come by for a visit when you can...the door is always open. Sit and have a cup of tea and lets catch up!

Have a beautiful day and stay warm...or cool..where ever in the world you may be. I have introduced myself and will be back tomorrow with my cup of tea to chat with you.

Til Tea Time Tomorrow My Loves...

Alana